I’m so looking forward to Thailand right now. I can’t wait to get there at this point. A part of me is sad to go, admittedly, but there’s another part of me that is just ready to take on the world and wishes I was leaving today. I’m ready!
It’s funny how a little self reflection can show you such embarrassing things about yourself. It can also bring out some amazing realizations and qualities about yourself. I’ve been enjoying both sides of it lately. It’s good to be able to laugh at yourself. No regrets. Instead of regretting, I’ve started to truly practice what I always preached which is to be grateful for every situation that I’ve been in because it’s strengthened me and taught me so much.
So right now I’m feeling a bit of a RAWR in me and ready to go out and use it. It’s about time I showed the world what girl power is all about. That being said, get out there if you’re in Vancouver and go see my film, ‘Box’, along with a whole boat load of horror films directed by amazing women like Lori Bowen, Karen Lam, Brionny Kidd and others. All the details are here about the Viscera Film Festival in Vancouer, BC so be there or be… whatever you want to be.
But back to what I was saying about girl power? Yeah, I’m feeling it and I’ve felt it for a long time but allowed myself to be confined into society’s little boxes pre-planned for me, which don’t work so it’s time to go out and take on the baddie of the world… the big corporations, the whalers, the depraved and all the negative jerks out there, etc. I can do it and I can make the world a better place. No matter what anyone thinks, I can do it.
I wanted this whole blog to end up with this video and lo and behold the video owner, who ironically is probably not the owner of the footage or the song, has disabled embedding so I’m just going to have to give you the link to this video which I felt was appropriate for this post.
So it’s all been building up to this. It’s the first of the year, welcome to 2012. What a great time to talk about what I’ll be doing with the last year of human existence (as we know it). I guess you can just look at it as my way of telling everyone at once instead of having to tell the story over and over again. What a pain that would be. There’s a couple of parts to this so you just have to be patient with me.
So the first part of this is that I have to say my husband has been one of the most amazing people in the world and a great influence on my life in a very positive way. To even try to list all the way’s he’s helped me in my life and how much he’s done for me would be almost impossible. I’d have to write a book. It’s an understatement to say that both of us have done so much for each other. We’ve shared a very special relationship and one that I’m more than grateful for. He is a great father and an amazing artist in all mediums, talented, handsome, has a great sense of humor and is one of the best people I will ever meet.
Over the years, like a lot of couples do, we grew farther and farther apart. We haven’t been enemies or anything of that sort and of course we had arguments like every couple does and said things we didn’t mean, etc. but we’ve always loved and respected each other when it comes down to it. The love changed like everything else though, and eventually we found ourselves acting more like best friends, roommates, business partners, and such as opposed to a married couple so at this point we’re taking some time apart. There’s not a whole lot to say about that at this point other than we are still friends and working together to make sure we spend an equal amount of time with our daughter and that we do what is in all our best interests and keep things peaceful.
That being said however, there are other reasons it all went down like this. Each of us has things we are pursuing right now, bigger dreams and goals than what we’ve really helped each other to achieve and really can at this point. One of my goals for a long time has been to spend some time in Thailand. I don’t know why but I’ve always felt a spiritual pull there and in Peru among some others. In addition to a lot of other travelling I’ll be doing this year, I’ve decided to relocate for a time to Phuket in Thailand. Before you freak out, know that it’s not permanent.
My decision was based on the fact that it’s something I’ve wanted to do for a long time and the fact that there’s no better time than now to do something. I’ll be skyping with my daughter every day, having her there, hopefully as much as possible, but at least several months of the year and its something she’s perfectly fine with. She’s actually excited about it because she’s wanted to travel for awhile now too. The two of them will be able to come and visit whenever they want to and it will be an inexpensive and peaceful place for me to ‘come home’ to after each of my other trips.
The original plan was to go to the UK as I talked to some of my friends about but I realized that what was waiting for me there was something I should hold off on for awhile. I really wanted to make sure I was following my path as I had intended and not veer off anymore and if what is there is for real then it will still be there later or might show up in Phuket on it’s own. Yeah.
So there it is. The first day of the year and I’m getting ready to make the craziest move I’ve ever made in my whole life! I’m so excited right now and feel so good about it! I have been looking at houses and apartments there through some local real estate agents and I know exactly which few square miles I’ll be living in but not sure about the place yet. I’ll be attending a Thai language school and culture course, living right on the beach, working and writing like I am now. In a total paradise.
So there you have it. I’ll be updating more on this but this is the big announcement. I can’t even tell you how happy and excited I am and how much I’m looking forward to this So much good stuff is gonna happen this year. I leave you with an appropriate video as far as what I’ve been feeling like to doing to pedophiles lately and of course the title. Enjoy!